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i suppose in teaching one never gets the chance to be quite as smart as one might be … there’s something held back … a place inside the idea you never get to … like in was it to the lighthouse … you get to q, maybe even r or s, but never to t … never quite that far …

it’s an impractical desire … to get so far … considering all that you’d have to leave behind … for the sake of an idea … when all the time these warm & curious souls in seats want … something solid … at least enough to stand on today … they want to believe in say grades that will open out to a future a life … of money or fame or love far from these clouds … they want all the questions answered … and who doesn’t … no blame in that